Calvin and Hobbes is my favorite comic so I thought I'd do a little ode to it. Here is the sketch for "Ms. Hobbes"

What Lies Beneath

Wow. My first finished piece in a while, hope you enjoy. Happy Halloween!

Shewolf progress

Sketchbook .001

I was playing around with markers, I'm really not used to using such a permanent medium and not being able to fix my mistakes. So I'm proud of myself :]

Halloween time.

Halloween is my most favorite time of year, and I usually try to come up with some fun Halloween themed art. Recently I saw the movie Trick R Treat and in it is a scene with a group of beautiful girls who turn out to be a pack of vicious werewolves. That's where I got the inspiration for this sketch. She's ripping her flesh off to reveal the wolf within. This is just a rough sketch, I plan to make it a finished piece. I know there is some things that could be fixed with it, so help me out, critique me.



Love,
Justin

So it begins...again.

The last few months have been pretty rough but I've made some really positive strides lately. For those of you who did not know (which is most everyone) I suffer from extreme social anxiety disorder. This causes me to have panic attacks about situations that involve unknown people, which is basically any situation you can think of. Of course this illness hit its peak right when I started college, and not just college but my dream school, College for Creative Studies. This made things very difficult for me. First semester went by fairly well as I really tried to cope with my anxiety, but as second semester came, things went down hill. I started having anxiety about assignments which then caused me to not do them. This started a chain reaction. Fearing the instructors would say something about my missing assignments I would have an attack and then skip class. Well then I would skip the next class fearing that they would then say something about my absence. As you could see I was digging a deeper and deeper hole. By this time I was failing every class and now I not only feared my instructors I now feared my parents would learn of my huge fuck-up. My depression worsened as my world was falling down around me, thanks to my anxiety. I eventually stopped going to class all together. But I couldn't let my family know this, so every morning I'd get up get ready then drive around for hours until my class would be over. I had become this pathetic. I was so scared. Eventually I wrote my family a long letter explaining my anxiety, my depression, my failure at school, and left it on the door as I left for my boyfriends. Without hesitation they told me they loved me and would get me help. A few weeks later I started seeing a therapist weekly. It helped so much, I learned a great amount about myself. I'm now on medication for anxiety and depression and things have really have taken a turn for the better. It's sad that I messed up at my dream school before I got help though, but I plan to return at some point. I belong there. Currently I'm taking online classes at Schoolcraft. I hid this from a lot of people (I'm very good at masking my true feelings) and some I've told, but now everyone will know the problem I will be constantly working on to better.

Along with messing up with school, my depression really dried up my artistic mind, so now that things are getting better. I'm gaining it back! Ha. So I thought I'd start a blog to show my artistic progress post-justinshellhole. Hope you guys follow me and leave lots of constructive comments. I love citiques.


Love,
Justin